Here is a terrible photograph of a preliminary sketch of Cupid [Winter] taking Tanith [Nyx] away into her daydreams of love, happiness, and fulfillment. Apparently, Tanith is as whimsical, as the the artist (he-he). I had a difficult time rendering Cupid’s face. I wanted him to come out like Johnny Depp and yet my hand ended up drawing someone else's face [1]. The reason for this could be that I have grown accustomed to rendering Henning’s face and intuitively wanted to draw him instead [2]. I attempted to fix Cupid’s face, and he looks different now, but not as hot as wanted him to be [3]. Overall, I am pleased with the way this illustration has come out. Cupid is a dark angel, and he also reminds me of a dark superhero [4]. He wears his heart on his sleeve, just like the artist [5]. This sketch is going to be digitally combined into illustration number 23, the first page of chapter 4. Actually, illustration number 23 will spread across two pages [6]. I want the landscape to be vast and filled with people and things floating upwards or desiring to fly [7]. The background is also completed, so I am now drawing the individual components that will go into the main illustration. Like all of the other illustrations, Cupid [Winter] and Tanith [Nyx] will be digitally enhanced. I will work on Cupid to make him more sexy [8].
It’s nearly 4 AM and I have a friend stopping by at 10:30 AM for coffee and a walk. I better get to sleep.
Notes
[1] I would later understand why my inability to draw Johnny Depp happened. It turns out that Cupid/Winter eerily resembles Hans. I would only come to understand this in 2018.
[2] Nope. This face did not resemble Henning's face either. But I was trying to understand why Cupid's face had come out so different than my intention.
[3] I was already unconsciously aware that Hans was exceedingly gorgeous. Indeed, he was Cupid incarnate when he was alive. That I grappled so much with Cupid's face is a kind of psychic drawing--I knew I was on the right path, and yet I could not quite get every aspect as I wanted. Johnny Depp was merely a placeholder for the deeper meaning behind this drawing.
[4] Uncanny! Hans was a dark superhero of sorts---a fighter pilot in Nazi Germany.
[5] The heart is a repeating symbol that both Hans and I are drawn to. There's evidence to this from his recent life.
[6] Apparently, I still had enough control of this insane story that I knew precisely what I meant by "illustration 23" which was confusing until I furthered described it.
[7] Like Cupid, like Hans.
[8] I can't let this go. It seems as if I was so aware of Hans's presence on a viscerally unconscious level that I was embarrassed that I had not captured him as accurately as I should have. As if, I had known all my life what he looked like and to not capture him accurately was humiliating.
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