Never Let You Down
Do you remember all the sounds, when I found you by the lake, and how the water seemed to call your name?
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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor
Lavavoth
Nov 16, 20173 min read
The Race Dream and the Soldier Ghost
His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.
Lavavoth
Nov 14, 20172 min read
Nocturnal Visitation: Ich sehe dich in der Ferne
Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...
Lavavoth
Sep 6, 20171 min read
A Valkyrie’s Love Poem for the Trees
They have destroyed your
beauty, your canopy that once enfolded me into
your splendor.
Lavavoth
Aug 4, 20174 min read
Blitzed Baby! Psychedelic Marines, Subterranean Dreams & the Heroin Epidemic
The synergistic blend of the Pervitin high and "autotelic violence" allowed soldiers to remain impervious to the consequences of war.
Lavavoth
Jul 19, 20171 min read
Abandoned Berlin: An Apocalyptic Dream
“Und tanzen ist verboten!” He shouts at me in German, so I leave.
Lavavoth
Jul 12, 20174 min read
Ewiger Wald: The Roots of Ecofascism and My Love for the Real Eternal Forest
Given Germany’s deeply rooted connection to the woods, I had always assumed that its forests were robust and covered much of the country.
Lavavoth
Jun 7, 20173 min read
Latest Photo Acquisitions: GIs, Bombed-Out German Cities & Panzers
After being haunted by the Brandstätten images in December, I decided to purchase original photographs of WWII bombed out German cities.
Lavavoth
Mar 27, 20173 min read
Avoiding “The Night Porter” Trap (and Website Updates)
Although Blind Love is an edgy and provocative illustrated novel full of “Nazi heartthrobs,” it is actually about the resistance movement.
Lavavoth
Dec 26, 20163 min read
Ghosts of Berlin, Part 2: The Berlin Wall
I meandered my way through the streets, shuddering at all the postwar construction, knowing exactly why old Berlin no longer existed...
Lavavoth
Dec 16, 20166 min read
“It Was Great Fun!”: Antique Photo Collection, Hitler Youth Haircut & the Unbearable Thousand-Year Reign of Fascism
I collect these things because they are directly tethered to an unspeakable past, and this helps me to psychically understand the history.
Lavavoth
Dec 15, 20164 min read
From Prussia (and Beyond) with Love: Searching for Hans's Face in the Portraits of Others Leads to Unexpected Photo Collection
Collecting these photos was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.
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