Spiritual Ancestors: A Vision Quest Towards a New Land and Learning to Live with Past Life Trauma
This journey is about connecting with my spiritual ancestors who fill me with purpose, meaning, and curiosity.
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"I write to discover what I know."
– Flannery O'Connor
Lavavoth
Feb 1812 min read
How Music, Lifestyle, and Film Shaped My Early Experiences of Sensing Hans
It was an initial awakening that arrived through certain films, lifestyles, and music. I had an inner knowing that my soulmate was coming.
Lavavoth
Feb 1411 min read
"River Phoenix" Astral + Precognitive Visitation October 31, 1993
Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.
Lavavoth
Nov 5, 20232 min read
The Verboten Love Affair
As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.
Lavavoth
Jul 28, 202110 min read
A Journey Through Time: Lockerbie Bombing, Past Life Death in Germany, and Hans's Past Life Shadow
Nothing would prepare me for what I would endure when I found out about Pan Am 103 exploding over Lockerbie Scotland.
Lavavoth
Jul 7, 20217 min read
Using Creative Expression to Process My Past Life Death in Germany
Creative expression can be used as way to process past life death. One of the ways to accomplish this is through poetry.
Lavavoth
Jun 23, 20214 min read
Using Poetry to Heal Current and Past Life Suffering
The process of writing poetry offers a sense of release and healing. Poetry can also help us to work through current and past life issues.
Lavavoth
Feb 3, 20198 min read
Bidding the Ghosts and the Illustrated Novel Farewell
He stood at the foot of my bed, staring at me without blinking, repeating, “Normandy, Normandy,” even though his mouth remained closed.
Lavavoth
Nov 16, 20173 min read
The Race Dream and the Soldier Ghost
His desire for me to know his identity was apparent from the start, but I was not ready to confront his shadow.
Lavavoth
Sep 8, 20175 min read
Preface to Blind Love: Fascism, Then & Now
This book has been years in the making, taking dozens of twists and turns that have mirrored moments in my current and past life.
Lavavoth
Aug 4, 20174 min read
Blitzed Baby! Psychedelic Marines, Subterranean Dreams & the Heroin Epidemic
The synergistic blend of the Pervitin high and "autotelic violence" allowed soldiers to remain impervious to the consequences of war.
Lavavoth
Jul 12, 20174 min read
Ewiger Wald: The Roots of Ecofascism and My Love for the Real Eternal Forest
Given Germany’s deeply rooted connection to the woods, I had always assumed that its forests were robust and covered much of the country.
Lavavoth
Jun 7, 20173 min read
Latest Photo Acquisitions: GIs, Bombed-Out German Cities & Panzers
After being haunted by the Brandstätten images in December, I decided to purchase original photographs of WWII bombed out German cities.
Lavavoth
Jun 6, 20173 min read
Transforming a Kriegsmarine Sailor into a Goth with an Aphrodisiacal Mensur Scar
As it frequently tends to happen with my art-making process, I tap into ethereal realms, channeling ghosts and unseen energy, reaching...
Lavavoth
Mar 27, 20173 min read
Avoiding “The Night Porter” Trap (and Website Updates)
Although Blind Love is an edgy and provocative illustrated novel full of “Nazi heartthrobs,” it is actually about the resistance movement.
Lavavoth
Feb 24, 20171 min read
The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945
The Erotic Years, 1940 – 1945 is a controversial picture book depicting trysts between Nazi soldiers and French women in occupied France.
Lavavoth
Dec 26, 20163 min read
Ghosts of Berlin, Part 2: The Berlin Wall
I meandered my way through the streets, shuddering at all the postwar construction, knowing exactly why old Berlin no longer existed...
Lavavoth
Dec 24, 20161 min read
Funny, Fucked Up, Frightening
Look Who's Back, directed by David Wnendt, paints a grim and disturbing portrayal of Hitler returning to contemporary Germany.
Lavavoth
Dec 22, 20163 min read
Ghosts of Berlin, Part 1: The Flak Tower
When I prepared for my trip in February, I knew, given its intense history, that I would inevitably run into a spirit or two...
Lavavoth
Dec 18, 20164 min read
Brandstätten: Setting Germany Ablaze
Learning about the firsthand accounts of the Allied bombing campaign of German cities, add another layer to the war.
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