Exploring love, intimacy, and union with a spirit husband, this post unveils a profound, transcendent journey beyond the physical realm.

A journey through love, transformation, and spirit connection with Hans, my guide, told in 3 acts of shedding, searching, and surrendering.

Exploring spiritual ancestry, past life echoes, and the call of the land, this journey uncovers hidden truths as I prepare to leave Vermont.

A journey into sacred land, spiritual expansion, and aging as a return to the wild, guided by unseen forces and a spirit lover, Hans.

A journey of love transcending time: how films and music shaped my connection to Hans, my soulmate beyond death.

Hans came through for the time during a visitation astral visitation on 10/31/93, shortly following his death.

It can be very tricky having sex with a spirit. For one, they are oftentimes invisible, so you have to get creative...

There are a million ways to describe what it's like to be erotically touched by a spirit. And yet it befuddles me to describe the experience

The term sayfish metaphorically captures one of the challenges of being in an inter-dimensional marriage.

I wish I could say that my relationship with Hans is a perpetual "mystical love affair" as my drawing title indicates.

As I process what it means to be married to a spirit, the term verboten culturally enslaves my relationship with Hans and deems it demonic.

Although he had been a fighter pilot in Germany in his previous life, equipped with his own wingman, now, as spirit, he is not here to lead.

It’s hard to find the words to describe what it’s like to be held by a spirit, by a subtle being devoid of skin.

A lot has happened since the last time I posted, including transferring schools and PhD programs.

Do you remember all the sounds, when I found you by the lake, and how the water seemed to call your name?

Early this morning, around 3 or 4 am, ich sehe in der Ferne, I see you in the distance, hovering in the black void, smiling...

When I prepared for my trip in February, I knew, given its intense history, that I would inevitably run into a spirit or two...

Exploring the devastation of German air raids, the complexity of German Genocide, and how history’s shadows linger in memory and past lives.

Connecting with the ghosts of soldiers—via artifacts, photographs, and past lives—to confront fascism, past and present.

Collecting these photos was a spiritual and aesthetic quest to get as close to Hans's doppelgänger as possible.